tired of pretending to be who she isn't, too afraid to leave the mask because she knows. she knows that, the way she is, herself will only cause trouble. she knows she just doesn't fit in. she doesn't want anyone to think that there's something wrong. too afraid to shock them, to afraid to scare them, too confused with all the change. did they civilized her too much? did they lost her? it's not normal teenage problems what this is all about. is something deeper, something serious.

what the hell happened here, I ask.