"This game has become very personal lately, and I'm afraid of what I may turn to be without its company. This game keeps me alive, it intruduces myself to me, it tries to make me understand what I am. I have lists: things I've done wrong, things I've done right, people I helped, people I hurted... if you took the game away from me, I may fall into illusion again, and things won't ever be clear. 

So  let me play (I don't know until when) it's something I would love to ask, but I can't. Because friends want to help you, and if I hurt them in the game's process, then I must have no friends."